I thought I was having PMS for feeling emotionally down these past few days. Crap, obviously not.
Eh, then, is it mid-life crisis??
Time is ticking so fast! Few occurrences passed in front of me and happenings with friends around me, seems to electrocute and jolt my mind and feelings.
Ouch, my heart... yooooooo it's bleeding. Why? Mainly....
1. For receiving wedding invitations
2. Friends starting to ignore or care much lesser because they are busy with their new girlfriend or boyfriend
3. All my siblings - either married or have boyfriend
4. Saw Facebook friend's notifications - change of status - either 'in relationship with' or 'got engaged to...'. Very fast they get into a relationship, found their partner in few months time, and the status changed after meeting and dating their girlfriends for less than a year!
Time flies so fast, BUT, is it me that my relationship is just between me and God? I'm not supposed to be blessed meeting a real true boyfriend? This is moving worse than a tortoise. Penyu ke?? or non-existence...
This stuff hits my head automatically like an alarm clock! because every upcoming festive season.. starting with Christmas soon, then new year and then, chinese new year , I have to witness couples celebrating together, gifts exchanging with their love ones, spending quality time together, leading up to the worst occasion I dislike and dread most, Valentine's Day. That's right, it is D-day for me. Ditch Day or Dooms Day that is!
I admit, me too, like to enjoy being in relationship feeling. Heck! I look strong and jovial day-to-day, occupying myself with things to do. But tell me, which girl do not like to be cared and loved from an opposite gender? We all do! I do!
We (and some of my single friends) just don't complain and choose to view this from the positive angle (some are simply ignorance).
You know, or, do you know? It takes a lot, A LOT, LOTssss of endurance, patience and faith to go through this.
I really hope that couples out there can bless and pray for us single ones.
And..... during get-together or outing....
** be more sensitive **
Ok, whatever the disturbances and influences are, I will still hold on to my principle. It isn't easy but I will still hold on to it.
Shoo shoo! Little devil voices, go away!
Let me pass through this crisis quickly......this passing clouds, are pathetic and miserable (yes, I know!)
I've been doing my own things for a long time now, and seeing guys whom I like passed by, which turned out that they are going out with other girls shortly after I found out their non-committed answer to me...it hurts! It also hurts for not being able to be with the one I like, even though there was chemistry. It hurts more that they didn't even dare to step-up to let me know.
What now? What's the right thing to do?
Continue to keep my principle - that guys should take the action to do the chasing and step-up to ask the girl to take the friendship further. Yes yes I am a traditional girl.
I believe, one day, there will be that someone, who is willing and appreciates me.
So, that's it! Listen to Will Smith:
"Don't chase people. Be yourself, do your own thing, and work hard. The right people - the ones who really belong in your life - will come to you. And stay"
While I'm at it...
Dear God, please bless me with the right person soon who will bring joy and happiness into our life together as one. Amen.